try to suprise me... will you

kalau haritu aku bagitau yang aku akan stay umah my mom for a week.. but then i've changed my mind.. so last night kami selamat balik ke Arau.. i dont know why i made that decision tapi i dont think being there will make things easy..

so yesterday was my 30th birthday.. nothing special happen.. not that i'm hoping for things to happen tapi why not once in a while try to suprise me with something kan.. yup kadang2 aku perlukan kejutan itu.. just to know that i'm still there.. tapi nada..

only birthday wishes and a birthday cake that afternoon.. which i ask for not that kind of fancy2 kind of cakes.. huhu..

well i guess i have to bear in mind that.. it's not easy to get other people attentions to what i want..

and yesterday i just found out something that really hurt my heart alot.. aku tak pernah sekali pun terfikir akan perkara itu.. well i guess all the actions shown are true..